ahgirl (dandan)

2011-11-08T14:40:00.001+08:00

Hello... I'm looking for talents for my short film. PLEASE HELP ME! :D

1. Male / 6-10 yrs.
Younger Version Of Main Actor - A small kid that is very happy whenever he's together with his mother.

2. Female / 31-40 yrs.
Step Mother - Step mother of the main actor, mean and demanding.

3. Female / 41-50 yrs.
Real Mother of Main Actor - A very poor and emotional old lady that miss her son so much.

4. Male / 18-22 yrs.
Main Actor - A very emotional guy that needs love from his real mother.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! :)
Please email me or call me!

Cynthia
cynthialee91@hotmail.com

2011-09-02T02:03:00.001+08:00

Selling off SHINee World - Sat, 10 Sep 2011 06:00 PM, Singapore Indoor Stadium Terrace T38 Row:22 Seat(s):7,8. Plus $3 per ticket due to sistic charge. If interested please drop me a message! Price negotiable! :)

2011-07-02T02:08:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile!

Got bad news and good news.
Let's talk about bad news first....
Recently hurt my back till quite serious. Actually past few day I already numb, but today when I took bus, I back suddenly VERY PAINFUL! Omg. Don't know how. When I heard from my friend that it might cost a lot for the Chinese massage doctor, I mind was like "I'm already very broke! :'( HOW?!"
Still thinking of a way.. Hopefully I can recover without going to doctor.

Here's the good news...
Today I got a call from Singapore Police Force. Asking me to go for interview for the position of management support officer. Quite happy about it but still hoping that I can get news from the Singapore Civil Defense. For the position of Station Officer. Please give me this chance! Please! I really love civil defense! :)

Done with sharing both good news and bad news.
Now is time to share about my thinking....
"Why did we broke up? Can't get back together?? Can you don't leave?"

Thinking of setting up a live journal to record my short story every week.. Should I?? My interest.. ^^

Waiting for TIME to PASS!!

2010-08-04T12:04:00.003+08:00

In school right now!! :)

Waiting for another lesson to start... Is like 6 hours away.. WTH. Then now i'm slacking in the school with classmate while waiting for start. Haiz. Sian. This few days i'm become more and more tired. Always sleeping late at night (or even morning then slp), making me feel so tired and lazy.. Don't feel like going to school.

Somemore the homework like non stop.. Keeping doing and doing.. :(

This feel days got a weird feeling. Feel like moving somewhere nearer to my school. So that i don need to wake so early in the morning.. :P

I miss going out, reading manga at home, slacking at home, watching tv, sleeping more.. :(

I wanna go back to that time!!!

Haiz. After coming to NAFA, i like no day and night siax. Hopefully my nightmare end soon... Okay la.. Shall end here... Will update again i i'm free..

BYE! :D

'LAUGHING out LOUD!'

2010-08-02T01:17:00.002+08:00

WOw... It's 1.25am ans i'm still awake.. Now not sleeping le. Just abit mad le. Got crazy because of one piece of drawing. I'm done with the last drawing. But it's like 3 out of 4 la. LOL! The last piece make me go crazy. The funny thing is that i'm not angry but instead i feel like laughing out.

Just now when to bathe then feel much refresh. Today i feel so guilty that i waste my friend time. I'm sorry. Really very sorry. If u need any thing to make u feel better do tell me.. I shouldn't ask for ur help. Waste ur time only. Sorry..

Haiz.. Now still thinking of how to solve the problem... AIYOYO.. How i wish i have interest in art or art base..
Can i do it?

Hopefully......

2010-07-22T01:08:00.000+08:00

Did I mention that I started to go school? NAFA.
19th July, first day of school. Not bad. Quite interesting. No homework. Good!
20th July, second day of school. Photographic class fun! Then design class quite okay but got LOTS of homework! :(
21st July, third day of school. Hmmm. Quite interesting. Advertising class. No homework! Good!

Wish me luck guys. Just now sleep for few hours then continue. Due to having headache and giddy. So now I'm going back to slp since I'm already half way of my homework! Night people! :D

2010-06-07T15:51:00.004+08:00

YO! Yesterday ROCK!!

Yesterday went to see the showcase that SUPER JUNIOR have in singapore. It's at Marina Bay Sands & Convention Hall B. SO COOL!

Alot of people but i manage to go there early to queue. At least i got infront too. Around half infront. hehex. Also can. My first time to SUJU. Took alot of pictures too. But alot of the pictures were too blur. Manage to took some clear wants.. :P

Anyway, they came for the Singtel and Samung Galaxy S Phone.
They invited SJ to come for a showcase. NOT BAD.
They sing 5 songs then rush back to korea le.. Too BUSY. LOL!
Anyway, First song is BONAMANA! Then they ended with SORRY SORRY! :D

They did help Ryeowook celebrate his birthday. SO SWEET!
I ENJOY! They say they will be coming to singapore for CONCERT! YEAH!
SAve Money for them. ^^

I LOVE SUJU! MY DAY ROCK! :D
BYEBYE!

2010-05-25T19:31:00.002+08:00

Recently STILL finding jobs. When i have no job, i been thinking that maybe i should go back to there and work for the time being? I really need cash siax. ARGH!!
Irritating. I just don wanna go back. I just wanna forget somethings that it shouldn't be happening in the first place. I admit that i already forgotten about it but going back to it, make me feel even worse.

Just another thought of my thinking. TSK. If only i can open up my mind and don't think about it. ARGH... Don't wanna talk about it le.

This few days being staying at home waiting for calls to interview. Haiz. I hate it when there's nothing for me to do at home. I alone, nobody at home to accompany me.. ALL WORKING & STUDYING expect me at home nothing to do.

Actually tomorrow i have to go NAFA to make payment. But i just got a bad news. Mt sis told me that the cpf thingy have to wait for confirmation. Then the dateline for the payment is thursday. I don't even know how long i have to wait. The worst thing i told my friend to wait till tomorrow then go make payment. She say okay but because of me, she change her appointment with other friend. I don't know how to tell her. HAIZ. What if the confirmation for cpf is not given by tomorrow, then that means i can't make payment. Which means, I CAN'T GO NAFA STUDY! WTH?!

I make a decision then now got this problem. Why am i so stupid? Why i can't apply the cpf thingy myself when my sister's at overseas? I can't even do a small thing. Stupid me. I did try but in the end i just until last step then donno how to do le. STUPID me right??

How? I called up to my friend le but nobody answer.. My brain gonna burst......

2010-05-17T13:04:00.004+08:00

I'm sick. :(

it's been awhile since I sick until like that.
Worse thing is no one is at home to take care of me. Aiyoyo.
Can't talk much, not strenght to go out or walk around in my house but jus lying on my bed.
Hungry~
nothing to eat expect fried rice. I don wanna eat fried rice. I wanna eat porridge!
Haiz. Think I will jus go hungry today till my mother is back.

Bored at home. Nothing to do. Nobody's hiring me. Wth.
My mother ask me go back popular work. But I'm trying to find other jobs. I wan higher pay. Need money.
Argh. Irritating.

Decided to go NAFA study. July 19 will start school. So in the mean while, please let me find a job!! :(

2010-05-10T22:29:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since my last update.

Hahas. Been very lazy this few weeks. Like to slack on my bed and not doing anything. Look at wall, talk to myself.. Like crazy girl.
This few weeks has been finding jobs crazily.. Mad about it. My mother keep nagging me. It's not like I don wan to find job. Is nobody wan hire me. Lol!

Today I did something mad. That is I apply 4-5 jobs in a row. At amk hub. Hahas. Need to continue write application form. Write until bored. Hehex. Cause I need rewrite my personal details alot of time. Anyway, I also feel safe after apply so much retail job. Right now, I just need to wait for them to call me back and inform whether I'm hired anot.... Hopefully I can get the back from the shops I like. :)

2010-04-26T00:21:00.002+08:00

Don't really understand what is going on with me??

Sometimes I think that I'm a bit crazy and sometimes I think I super crazy. Lol.
Confuse huh? Myself also confuse.
Just now were having a small fight with my boyfriend. Is like we are funny. We don't really talk to each other if we get into a small fight.
Maybe it is common to other couples. To me, weird.

I can't accept that this small thing will actually affect us or rather say it's me? Haiz.
Anyway, we did talk on the phone again just now and I think maybe we okay already?? Hahas.

Let's talk about myself. Tomorrow starting to work le. Although it is a one day trial, but hope that I can continue working and able to attend my sis's 21st birthday party too. :)

bye! Nights! :D

2010-04-22T21:57:00.003+08:00

Today got a job interview and might be able to start working on monday! YEAH! :D
The only thing for now is waiting for them to call me tomorrow to confirm.

Few more days to my popular pay day... ^^
Although it's a bit only, rather than nothing.

After my pay is given, I wanna go shopping for the clothes. Office wearing. I mean smart wearing. Cause today when i'm thinking of what to wear for today's interview, i realise that i don't have much smart wearing. Hmm.. I wanna buy bags too. Not enough money. Haiz. Have to save $80 for bill and transportation.

Mostly my handphone bills is around $40 plus. So i left with $30 ples. Damn it. TSK!
No choice. Hopefully can find a job soon so my money problem will be gone. :)

2010-04-19T16:12:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile since i update. didn't know what to update. and most of the time i'm always at home. :P

Lazy to go out. when i wanted to go out also can't. always crush with something else. Yesterday morning went to youth class. Felt so weird when i first wearing different. normally when i go to youth class, i will wear polo t with jeans. Yesterday different. i wear white tube with black jacket with jeans. cause at night going out. Feel WEIRD! Jm told me it's not. then got two others girls gossip about me. :(

Argh... Whatever. Anyway, in the afternoon i finally took the chance to go amk to do express manicure. dark blue colour. LIKE it a lot. ^^
After that went to tampines 1 shop shop. Don really go so far usually... Because he accompany me go shop for few hours so i'm alright with it.

Although only can meet him few hours due to meeting my parents at night but it was great. :)
At night, meet my parents at yishun station then take bus to blk 236 to meet sister to have dinner.. New vegetarian stall.. NICE! Anybody interested can ask me more for the info or maybe next time we can go eat together. ^^

Reach home around 9. then slack till 10 bathe. after bathing my sis ask me to help me be the model for her clothes. luckily only take till neck didn't take my face. if not ppl saw won't buy. :P
busy changing clothes and take photo till 11plus going to 12. can't really remember.. JUST SUPER TIRED! the only i know is when she finally finished taking photos, i already KO after that. Now i know being a model at runway is SUPER hard... I think is 10 times harder. lol.
Anyway that's all for now.

BYE! :)

2010-03-25T13:59:00.002+08:00

Dad birthday!

And there one more good news. NAFA! :)

Been finding jobs badly now. Don want to think other things too. Just studies first. :)
Other things can wait.

Maybe when i got my job de first salary then i can buy wallet.. :)
Cause my wallet spoil le. it been a month since my wallet spoil. but no money to buy only.
Actually i got alot of things spoil too. but no money to buy.
haiz. Slowly save money and buy loh. That's the only solution.

Got one question to ask. Copied from my friend.
How to mend a broken heart and a tired heart?
Solution - Time. Correct?
Or am i wrong? Hahas. If your got answer then tag my comment ba. :)
Thank you.

Byebye~ ^^

2010-03-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

Got no feel to update.

Not in the mood.
No strength,
don't feel like eating,
don't feel like talking much,
don't feel like sleeping,
but just starring at the wall.

I have make a decision. Which will make two person unhappy. Me and ... Don't feel like saying the reasons. Haiz.

That's all for the post.
And good luck to my friend who are in love. :)

2010-03-17T17:27:00.000+08:00

Wish all my friend luck in relationship. :)

2010-03-13T12:49:00.002+08:00

I love you!

All my friends! :P

hehex. I'm mad le. Too bored.
Nothing to do. Miss my schooling days. Hmmm.
Wanted to go out but donno how to explain to mummy.
Today just stay at home rest ba. Watch hong kong drama loh. :)

byebye! I'm hungry. Off to eat my BREAKFAST! Hehex. :P
lalala~

2010-03-04T20:20:00.003+08:00

It's been five day since i updated... :P

Hahas. This few days doing nothing expect going to all the interview that is not sucessful. LOL!

Too bad.. Have to apply more jobs. Hopefully i can find one soon so that i have money to spend.. If not, last choice.... Popular.. Which i don't really wish too. Aiya. If i got someone to give me money monthly then it will be so good.. ^^

Hehex. Just kidding. Who will give me money for no reasons? LOL. Last week did go out with my secondary school friends. Sadly, not all of them are free. So only three of us meet up.. LISA, YIHUAN, ME.. Haiz. Never mind la. Will try to meet out soon again. :D

And all the outing pictures upload too fb le. Can take a look over there. :)

I hair my hair.. TO....... BANGS! :D

Not eveyone like it. But the important thing is i like it can le. :)

BYE! :D

2010-02-27T02:52:00.001+08:00

I'm a big fat liar.......

I'm sorry, mummy.
I'm sorry, daddy.
I'm sorry, sisters...
I'm guilty.

I won't do it again.
I'm sorry.....

2010-02-18T15:04:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year ending soon! Not much hong bao.. Too bad!

And it's time to work! Been finding jobs for few weeks. But results... Not very good. :(
It's alright! I will continue finding jobs! :D
Must earn alot of money then go learn hip hop, japanese, korean! Yeah!
Now only dream.. But soon.. When I have a job, hehehehe. :P

okay la. Update again soon. :D

2010-02-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

Left 3 more hours to Chinese New Year! Cool! Got more hong bao!
And this year got a double thing! Valentine Day! Hahas!

Now watching tv with grandmother. Just now having steam boat! Good good! ^^
Wish to have more with the family. But also ma fan. Cause have to clean up too. Got alot of dishes to wash.
Haiz. It's alright la! One time in a year! Hehex.

Okay la. I going to do my stuff le. Bye!
People.. Hope ur have a wonderful Chinese New Year! :D

2010-02-09T14:54:00.002+08:00

Today is the day...

I'm gonna do manicure later!!! :D
Been waiting for awhile le. Finally tonight i doing le.
So cool.. So take pictures and update again soon..

Yesterday went back to school together with Jo-ann, Ritchie.
Then after that have dinner with grandfather shaun and all.
We talk alot. Got all the jokes.... LOL!

Okay la.. I going to apply poly le. Will update soon...
BYE!!! :P

2010-02-05T11:54:00.002+08:00

Today is SWY 21st birthday!

So let's wish him together everyone.

*sing birthday song for you*
Happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to you,
happy birthday to Wei yang,
happy birthday to you!!
:D

Yesterday is the day I have with my ite friends together last time! Cause we are all offically graduated!
So happy of it! So wish everyone can find their career soon or studies! :D
We did take alot of pictures... And have alot of fun and laughters.
So if anyone wanted to see the pictures go fb see. :)

Okay... That's all for now.
Bye! ^^

2010-02-01T16:13:00.002+08:00

It's a new start of Feb.....

Today is Feb 1st. I think is everyone dream that this day come real soon. For me, i'm happy that it's Feb. Cause new year is coming then got hong bao le. :)

Hahas.. Just kidding. Actually is new year coming then every family can get the chance to gather together. It's been one year since everyone gather together. For my mother side, we can all gather at my mother's elder sister house.. We will usually meet up at evening then have our dinner there. At night we will gather around and talk. Last but not least, we can all take a big family photo. Family by family then everyone. From my mother's elder sister to the youngest. Everyone family will take together with my grandmother. Hoping that the moment will come soon... :)

For my father side, we will all meet around afternoon time then have lunch at my ah ma's house together with my ah gong... When we reach, we will have our lunch over there first then after that everyone will gather around and talk.. As for the teenagers like us will also have our own conversation in the room. After the talking is either we change location to my father's sister house to continue or we will just stay at ah ma's house till night. In the night time, after the dinner, we will all have a small gamble.. Blackjack. Hehex! That's the part everyone been waiting for. We will all have our laughter spreading around the house. :)

Last reason is all the teenagers will get HONG BAO!! Hahas. We can save the money inside our bank.. Hope that this we will get more HONG BAO! So in advance, i hereby wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :D

2010-01-30T23:12:00.003+08:00

*Timeless....*

How i wish everything would stop. I really wish to see you smile happily like before. Hoping that all those unhappy things won't come. I love the moment we have and i know that it's coming to an end soon. How i wish that everything would just stop, but i know it's impossible. So let's cherish the time we have now and look ahead. No matter what happen in the future, I will still be with you. No matter what it's the relationship between us. Whether it's friends or what.

When there was moments of happiness and sadness, we will share and by each other.........................

2010-01-26T18:38:00.002+08:00

Updated.....

Past few weeks, alot of people thinking about the poly and results stuff but now, people do care about jobs and money. Most importantly, alot of teenagers like us got to afford the changes of adult fare. LOL. For my case, is like from heaven drop to hell.. Reasons, i didn't work so it's hard for me to afford all this. Haiz. Only thing i can do is don't always go out. That's one way to save money. :)

Past few weeks being busy with the short film thingy. Now, at home rot. Do nothing. Due to can't go out. Haiz. Maybe to other people they may think that at this kind of age still got control by parents. I personally don't to be control but too bad, i still have to listen to what my mother wants. So, for the next few days will be at home rotting. I must find something to do.

Firstly - Clean my room due to new year coming.
Second - ???

Others still thinking. Cause the earlier i finish cleaning my room, the more faster i will be very free and too bored due to nothing else to do. Erm.... Maybe i should cook a dish everyday? Try out new dish... Sadly got no people to test. Hehex. Maybe myself.

This fiday got to go back to school again. Help out DAVP with the video for the upcoming new school at CCK. For our course de. At studio so i got the chance to go back to studio with our own classmate! From K & L class. ^^ The bad news is i just got the news from my teacher that everyone beside got a second year student to help out. I don't like them. Haiz. No choice.

I think i shouldn't say too much.. Okay la.. Back to my drama. :)
BYE!!

2010-01-22T13:46:00.002+08:00

Headache~

This two days been staying outside to complete project. Just wanna say thank you to my teamates. Jo-ann, Shaun, Zhen Yu, Nizard, Wen hao, Ritchie and Miss Janice. Finally we are going to the end of the editting. Donno when will we have the find to meet up again. I'm happy to be in this production. :)

For past few weeks, i been slping late at home. always stay till 3 - 4 plus then slp. Even if i lie on my bed, lights off, still can't sleep. Is jus like too awake le. LOL. When i was at home every night trying to sleep, been thinking that if i can go poly then how good it will be. Haiz. Yesterday just got a news that my friend apply the same course same school going for the interview. Good for him. Wish him luck.

Bad news is..... i didn't receive any call or email saying i need to go for interview. Aiya.. Expected.. My GPA so low... LOL. The only thing i hope is to go poly. Don't wish to start working and start all over again. :(

Today.. One of my ITE friend birthday!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIN! :D

Hope that everyone get what they all wish for. GOOD LUCK GUYS! :)

2010-01-21T02:23:00.002+08:00

I miss my bed right now... :(

Tired.. Sleepy...

Muhahas. Now outside staying over at friend's house doing project. For Singapore Film Festival. ^^ Submission, 22nd jan 2010. So now rushing. :D

Good luck to all my friends. For interview for polys. Okay....
Let's hope that i also can go poly... *pray hard*

Imissyou... didyoumissme? hehex.. :P

2010-01-14T11:59:00.002+08:00

Updated!!!!

Finally i'm like updating my blog... Hahas..

So let start from last year de christmas time........
On dec 23 i went to malaysia with my childhood friends. then 27 dec onwards was having fun. 28 dec went to genting. then at night come back to singapore le. Took alot of pictures in between so i will update again. :)

On the dec 29 and 30, stay at home till afternoon time then go out. Meet friend. on the dec 31, didn't really have countdown with outside friends. Can't go out. but my mother not so bad.. after my religou class i went to jiamin hs and countdown with her like we were kids. ^^
At least i did countdown. but when i reach her house, i only bust looking at my comics and chatting on msn using itouch instead of talking to her. Oopps. :P
So one hour before countdown i stop everything and went to join jiamin and the rest cos they invited all the best friends. My religou de. :)

Although it's abit late, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!
Hahas. like too late le. cos desktop spoiled. Haiz. So can't use computer. lucky i got itouch so i still can update fb de. :)

So far there's nothing else to say le. Actually there's alot but i forgotten. Got STM. :P
That's all la.
Take care guys.
Try to update soon if i can. :)

2009-12-12T01:50:00.002+08:00

It's my BIG DAY!!!

Hahas. Firstly, Thank you to all my friends and family members!
I LOVE YOU GUYS! :D

I super happy that today is my official 18th birthday! Althought some of the things make me feel unhappy, but i'm trying my best to forgot about it!
My first present..... ITOUCH!!! Too happy. Is like... WOW! Am i dreaming????

Hehex. 32GB. Love the person who bought it for me. *hugs*

Gonna my day out...... YEAH!! :D

2009-12-08T17:21:00.002+08:00

I finally say.... ^^

Keeping it inside my heart for quite awhile. Finally said out. Sometime still awkward. Hehex.

don't know how to explain. but. I'm HAPPY!!! :D

Finally.... Today's the last day of editing in school. Yesterday night stay at school doing editing stuff for grad show.. SUPER TIRED sia!! Hahas. I'm like.... DAMN happy la!

Then few more days is my big day!

Hmmm.... Thinking of how to celebrate. I wish to get ITOUCH. but too expensive. :(

4 more days and it's my big DAY!!!

LALALALA~

Muhahahaha......

2009-11-23T23:33:00.002+08:00

I suck! seriously!

i'm totally suck like hell la. i piss off with myself only. seriously. i super stupid de la! i very the slow loh.

thank you to miss janice for helping me. if not, i will be like super slow la.
so, thank you for helping me to adjust the lighting.

today super angry with myself. angry until wanted to cry.
after the editing just now, i walk home. i really cannot control my emotion so i decided to walk home. wanted to cry already. cause i don't want them to see me crying like one stupid idiot like that.

I'm sorry to jo-ann, jiajin, miss janice. cause i just walk off like that. i really just only piss off with myself. I'm sorry.

HATE MYSELF! STUPID! IDIOT!

2009-11-22T23:57:00.002+08:00

UPdateD!

Seriously, i really can't remember much things. Only 1/4 of it? Or maybe half? Not much la. But i know i that i talk alot of crap. So you just 听 only can??
Then the rest you tell me more about it.
[if you know who you are then call me to say the full story can??]

TODay~

Morning wake up then first thing i do is ran to the toilet to vomit water. EEeeeee... i know i (er xin), but just wanted to say. after that went to religious class till after then off to meet jo-ann at city hall station then go cosplay! But after all, i feel very [xin ku] for the whole day. Suck~ :(

Went to suntec convention hall then to see cosplay. Got alot of people sia! Sad to say, when i reached there, i don't have the mood to see or take pictures. different from before. Last time i always take pictures when i reach there. Luckilly my mood came back after awhile later. if not i will be [emo] for the day.
Didn't see anything much. Also not alot of character. Not like few months ago. Maybe is because today is second day of the event. that's why not much character. So when evening time, i started to take alot of pictures but mostly is my classmate [Roy & Mark].
Until 8plus then they wanted to change and go eat dinner. Reach home around 10 plus. Got scolded. haiz. -.-"

[after so many things has happened, i still wish that i don't have voice. so that i can don't talk. sick and tired of talking. been trying very very hard to keep things inside my heart.]
I'm keeping everything deep inside.
Too tired, untill breathless~
action restricted~
emotional.

2009-11-20T01:33:00.002+08:00

Am i really a friend to you?

You seems to keep a distance from me. Nowadays when i need a listening ears, you are not there.
Felt there the distance between us getting bigger and further.

Do you know that days i been trying to talk to you but it's hard?
You make me feel awkward towards you.
The face you giving me is "Get away from me! Go further away."
Make me don't know how to talk to you.
I know that the age isn't a problem.

You should know who you are. The only one who know quite a number of things i keep to myself.

2009-11-19T03:00:00.000+08:00

Different faces that human have.

Sometimes, how i wish that this world only fill with no emotions. I know that this kind of thinking is bad but i just stop thinking about it. I wonder. Is there really time travelers? Or all fake?

Don't know la. Nothing much to talk about my lifestyle too. Only one word, BORED!

Everyday only go school do project until night then go home continue with project till midnight then sleep.

But luckily, Nov 16 & 17 didn't go school. Stay at home. Yes ar! :D

Actually sick but i'm happy that i don't have to go school. COOL LA!

Today went to school then start to talk crap again. Bored until go youtube watch videos. Watch Shinee - Ring Ding Dong! :D

Love them <3

Dong Bang Shin Ki, Super Junior, Shinee~

Afternoon start doing projects. Till class end, 4:30pm then go editing lab to edit video. FYP. Do until very late sia. One word to say: COLD!

Inside super cold la and somemore i'm still sick la. GREAT~

Hoping that everything will go back to normal soon.

I mean my life. Fill with busy and irritating stuff keep on coming.

I regret after that friday........

How i wish time can turn back~

2009-11-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

I'm getting irritated by you.

Can i say one thing?
You are making me really piss off nowadays. I don't know how to know how to explain but sometime u just don't understand hat i'm saying still can anyhow make comment.
I getting tired to talk you.

Today, stay home for the whole day. Doing the things that i don't like and i'm not suppose to do. but no choice. for my marks. Callsheet still okay. But already piss off. Then i realise that all the daily wrap report was wrong. Credits: MY GROUP MEMBER. So i have to do it again. Don't think tonight can sleep. Alright. Continue with the paperwork.

Inside my heart i really wish that u could give me the care i needed.
I really wish that i can hug you.

2009-11-09T16:45:00.002+08:00

Wanted to say thank you to the SOMEONE.

I know who you are and thanks. :D

i also needed people to be there when i need help,
i also wanted to people to love.....

2009-11-08T22:29:00.003+08:00

Wondering what will people do when they feel helpless and lost?
Will they cry?
Will they ask for help?
Will they just stay still?
Will they do anything sillly?
Will they solve the problem by themselves?

I'm wondering that if one day LHR is totally disappear from this world, what will people around me feel? Or reaction?
Some people maybe happy about it.

I'm feeling really sick~
I really wanted to cry out loud.
I wish someone will be there for me.
I'm tired.
I'm giving up.
Is it possible to find somebody that cares and love me?
I really don't wish to be alone.....
I'm afraid....

2009-11-01T15:23:00.003+08:00

Will Things Go Back To What It Used To Be?

This few days busy doing projects. Is like so tiring. Erm..... Can say that one more month to exams. Then i'm done with AMK ITE! YES AR! Hahas.

Don't really understand why people always look down on this course? Digital Audio & Video Producton suck? To me, NO! Is COOL! So stop saying to me that this course suck. I like it alot. I'm the one who choose it myself. So don't say that this course suck since you are not part of it in the first place.

Another is.... I still got 5 more days to the deadline of project. I think i can't finish it on time. Don't think i can have the GPA i wanted. Too many things already minus. LALALA~
I can't complain it out to anyone too. Cause i also have wrong. I should have do everything in advance. Well, who to blame? MYSELF of course! Haiz.

At home doing project and i'm sick again. SHIT!
Last thursday the pain i'm afraid of came back. This year really is a bad year for me. Went to the doctor. Thanks for those who came to accompany me. After seeing the doctor, went home normal or else will kena scold by mother. I can say that it's bad that i didn't tell her anything but.... if i say, will only happen in the way i don't wish to happen. So i rather act as nothing happen before. After a few days, i told my elder sister. Cause she asked me where all my money gone. I told her what the doctor say. She's angry... *Fierce* Luckily my sister agree to keep it as a secret between the both of us. Hahas.

In the house, i feel weird. Outside, I feel more weird. Only with my childhood friends i feel comfortable to be myself. I'm sorry to say that but i really feel that when i'm your i feel like i'm not myself. Only with my childhood friends then i feel more like myself. I can laugh as crazy as i want. Say out things that i'm thinking in my mind. Not being control by myself. Thanks JM & JH for being by myside when i needed you two. :)
I really can share things with your.
Today really say too much. Hahas. Just treat it as i'm nagging. :P

People change when that person wanted to run away,
but inside that person heart,
hoping that everything stay still.

2009-10-21T19:59:00.009+08:00

(Taken from DBSK Dream)

I Finallyy......... collected back the DONG BANG SHIN KI POSTER!! YEAH! :D

Muhahaha... So happy that i got the DBSK poster! Today my classmate return it to me le. Cause that time i didn't bring my file to keep so i ask my friend to keep for me first. Actually i always wanted to take back from him but in the end... forgotten about it. Hahas. Anyway, thank you! :D

Actually today not really in the happy mood. Due to not feeling well. Once i got back the poster, i super happy le. Don't really care about I'm sick.
Cause, DBSK super handsome.
They are so handsome. ^^
Hehex. I took pictures too. Lalala~

TOday.......

First time seeing myself so the "hardworking" in the school.
Cause from morning till end of the class, I'm busy with the project we have. Actually not only me la. Mostly everyone in our class doing the projects. Hahas.

Gastric pain. -.-"
Feel like vomiting. WTH?
Don't care le.

Now worried about the poster for FYP. Thinking of what to do.
Still got alot of things not yet done. And the dateline is next week! ARH!

- PPP Mini Project
- PPP Class Test (Not prepared!)
- PPP Written Project
- PPP Jobsheet 8
- BVE Mini Project
- FYP Poster
- FYP Paperwork

....... 7 things that we need to do. :(
TOO MUCH! *fainting*

Haiz. Now go watch anime first... RELAX first. Hehex. LALALA~
byebye~

2009-10-14T12:46:00.006+08:00

U are the most irritating person i ever seen.
Do you think that i want anything link that to you?
Do you think that i want to talk to you?
Do you think that i want to care about your life?
Do you think that i 'm a punching bag to you?
Do you think that you are the boss of me?

No you are not. Enough is enough.
Just don' t bother me can anot?
I already leave you alone.
What you do still want from me?

2009-10-07T22:47:00.002+08:00

BaCK FroM CHaLEt.

Went to chalet at oct 5 - 7. Reach home around 1 plus. SUPER TIRED.
But the chalet was quite fun after all. Just that don't really got to sleep.

A lot of things happen during the chalet.
MOST IMPORTANTLY,
I lost my phone. super angry with myself. WTH?!
long story. forget it. haiz.

Wish to erase my memories.

I can't forget those things that i don't want to remember or know,
I can't get it out of my mind right now,
I can't hurt my friend,
I can't admit,
I know it's impossible,
I'm getting confuse.
Get away.

Getting irritated by things that i don't wish to know.
Hoping that i can choose things i want or don't want to know.
Some times, it's better to keep quiet.
I admit that i don't know some of your well enough.

I WANT TO SHOUT OUT LOUD.
I'm confuse. :(

Signing off~
Confuse.
What i really want?

2009-09-24T18:36:00.000+08:00

PICTURES FOR FIRDAUS 18th BIRTHDAY!

2009-09-24T18:35:00.001+08:00

i'm bored.....

so bored when i'm home.. sleepy~
tml going to school....
erm.... i wanna to eat ice-cream and sushi...
out of sudden. lol.
Weird!

Nothing to do... Zzz~

2009-09-16T09:54:00.002+08:00

WHy? CaN TiMe TUrn BaCK?????

i DOn Like WHat IS gOinG oN riGHt Now..............................

2009-09-11T20:30:00.002+08:00

U treating me as a fool
Please stop it
I'm not your toys
Get out of my life
U are making me crazy
Leave me alone
I'm sick and of tired of you lying to me
Please don't come near me anymore
Please stop making my life difficult
I'm not a fool..........

Without u, i'm normal.
I just wanted to live normal.
I just wanted to be happy.
I wanted things to be like this forever.
I'm happy with what i become.
It's none of your business.
So get the hell out of my life....

I don't care what u think about who i become or who i with.
JUST DON'T BOTHER ME ANYMORE.

2009-09-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

I'm SupER SuPer BOred!!!

hahas. this few days at school then very quite siax..
nothing much to do expect paperwork for FYP.
um... speaking of FYP, i spent long time completing all the paperwork la..
SUPER tired loh.

Me and Jo-ann didn't sleep jus to complete the paperwork. cos the dateline is monday. or else will down one grade.... i did all my paperwork but......
in the end still hand up on tuesday due to somethings.... disappointed. haiz.
i really don wan to down grade la.. SHIT!

After passing up the paperwork, still have to stress about the shooting dates.. ARH. If only i have someone shoulder to rest awhile... um.....

Zzz~ Bored... this few days getter bored easily.. always wanted to find something to entertain myself.. but there's nothing.

i miss DBSK & Suju...
hope that they all come to singapore...
Super junior super show II,
Dong bang shin ki 3rd concert........

I LOVE DBSK & SUPER JUNIOR!! :D

2009-09-08T02:23:00.002+08:00

SO Late ALreaDy.... Yet.... ARH!

Need to sleep. really. donno i stay awake for how long le.... i'm damn sleepy. this few days been busy working with project. everytime so late still awake instead of slping.

i was once a pig... but now?
Can't sleep de PIG... :(

i need a sleep badly.....
Zzzz~

2009-09-07T09:02:00.002+08:00

GooD mOrnINg to EveryONE......

Sleepy. Zzz~ Whole night doing paperwork siax.
SUPER TIRED. Eyes closing. Actually i didn't sleep. But i whole night doing project la. One of my classmate also never sleep. doing her project too. :(
Morning 7plus meet her to eat breakfast. MAC. i didn't eat.
Stomach ache. Now at class. i today SUPER early reach school siax. lalalala~

MuHaHaHa~
Wish me luck for the paperwork. :)

2009-09-03T14:21:00.002+08:00

i DOn'T LiKe u!!!!

i HaTE U!!!

Stupid money!! i'm stress over the stupid money. ARH!
haiz....... How???? I want to work but always busy project.
How? How? HOW?!

Feeling better after saying out all this stupid stuff... :)

This few days been stress over by my project. I don't even know how to overcome it. If only i can solve things one by one. But everything come too fast. *Mei Ban Fa*
Final year project ma. *Yao ren*
LaLaLaLa~
Bye :)

2009-08-31T23:23:00.001+08:00

I'm SO......... TIred!!!

AnyWhERE that I FinD $$$ ASAP?!

2009-08-23T21:54:00.002+08:00

FINAL CALLING!

ANY GIRLS WANTED TO ACT FOR MY FINAL YEAR PROJECT?
FROM TUESDAY TO SUNDAY.
NEED TO FREE AT ANYTIME.
MEALS AND TRANSPORT ARE INCLUDED.

Female /18-24yrs. /Chinese.
(RACHEL) Rachel has Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) that causes her to have two personalities. In the morning Rachel is a very nice & pretty girl that every guys love. But at night Rachel is very hot tempered girl. She always dress like a punk & go out at night till next morning. In this show Rachel doesn’t know that she has this illness until she meet Gabriel. She is someone with good command of English. **Please be notified the character Rachel will die in this show.

Female /18-24yrs. /Chinese.
(CHRISTINA) Christina is Rachel's close classmates. She is a extra. She has few scenes. She is someone with good command of English.

24/08/09, Monday. 1pm - 5pm
There will be audition at Ang Mo Kio ITE.
If interested, please call 92218803.

2009-08-21T23:12:00.004+08:00

ThE FeeLIng iS BAcK! HaTE IT...

From yesterday till now don't feel very well. Always wanted to vomit. And stomach pain. Just like that time. Hate it when it come at the wrong time. I'm having my shooting next week. Please hope that happen to me till the end of the shooting.

Speaking about yesterday, went home at 3plus in the morning from amk.
Was doing project with Jo-ann & Jiajin & Miss Janice. Me adding on scene. Jo-ann finish her script. YEAH! But by the time i reach home and bath, it's already 4am. Dry my hair till 4 plus then finally sleep. 6.30am wake up to morning call classmate then prepare to go school. FLU!

Now still here sending email to Polys for request to film at there.
ARH! I want to sleep!
GOT PANDA EYE! VERY 'MING SIAN'. (Quite funny also)
Haiz. Stop here la. Flu....... =.="

Bye Bye~

2009-08-20T08:16:00.003+08:00

FInaL Updated........ :)

This few weeks lazy to blog until today decided to update. Last week busy finding talents for my project. And i finally found few of them. Quite happy with it. Expect for one the guy i ask. He very "ACTION"! Haiz. Don't talk about him. Spoil my mood.

But yesterday ask another guy from my school de. PEG department. He willing to help me unlike someone else. Hahas. So the PEG department de guy help me with the main role. After talking with him, another guy came to our school for the talk. He wanted to act as the second main role. WOW. Cool ar. Past few days can't people to act for me. Then now got two people WILLING to help me. So thankful. :)

* UNLIKE SOMEONE ELSE*

Hahas. I know i very bad. But i speaking the truth. Lalala~
Now i got another problem.... NO GIRLS!! Haven found the girls de main role and second main role. ARH! Location also haven found. :( Got mess up.
Somemore i only got one more week left for my shooting. I already WASTE TWO WEEKS finding talent.. Sob Sob.
SIAN!

Let's talk about myself. For the half of the page, i been talking about my project. LOL.
Actually nothing much happen to me la. Just that i change my hairstyle AGAIN. LOL. This time change back to the past time de wo. Long hair. Miss my long hair. FINALLY i got my hair back. hehex. Actually i wait quite long for it to grow back and did something to my hair. Lalala~

Um... Write alot. hahas. Okay la. I shall put a stop here. :)
BYE BYE~

2009-08-07T00:46:00.001+08:00

SO LATE! AND I'M STILL AWAKE!!! ARH!

Doing project. Stress. Tired. Can't focus. How?

I miss the smile you have.
Please don't separate.

2009-08-06T11:13:00.004+08:00

ToDAy is A QuieT daY~

Everyone is like so quiet. Including me. Surprise right??? I will keep quiet too. lalalala~

Too bored to be noisy. Too tired too. Not enough sleep. Zzz....

Woke up late and and late for class. FIRST TIME so late for class. In the past, i will only late for the max 30mins. But today, i late for almost 1hour. WOW! COOL.

Went in to class and start to surf internet instead of doing my project. Don't have the mood to do anything link to my project.

DON'T HAVE THE MOOD = LAZY!

I don't know how to explain. Just that there're things that bothering me. Don't know should say put anot. Scare later say until something cannot be said. LOL!

I miss Han Kyung......... Suju M is BACK!!!

I don't wan dong bang shin ki to separate.

2009-08-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

BE STRONG!

Lalala~ i have to say this to myself! Be strong girl! I shouldn't have think so much. After all, things that dosen't belong to me then just let it be. :)
I'm sorry that i shouldn't think of that yesterday. But............ I WILL BE STRONG! YEAH!
Lalala~

*PS: Recently not in the mood so when i talk to your very rude. sorry. I will change. :)

2009-08-03T09:47:00.002+08:00

aUGuST 3rd.

The day that i never forget. Some memories are not to be forgotten no matter what. I wanted to forget but hard.

Changing phone soon. :)

i always wanted to say.....
i miss you.

2009-07-30T00:18:00.001+08:00

I hAtE TaLkinG tO U!!!

Talk to you like talk to the wall. I shouldn't have reply your message la. I'm just a idiot. Waste my time. I shouldn't have even bother to ask you this.

Actually i have the right to know okay. I'm also part of it. I can still say this, YOU ARE STILL CHILDISH!

Only know how to run away from problem! IDIOT!

THIS IS WHAT YOU CALL BEING FRIENDS?! SHIT!

ARH! Today my mood also not very good due to some problem. In the afternoon already got feeling that something's gonna happen. At first thought that it's wasn't truth. But.......... ARH!
I really want to kill people!

2009-07-30T00:11:00.002+08:00

FINDING HOUSE, ACTORS AND BRIDAL SHOP.

If you are interested in acting, please contact me.
Need 2 girls and 1 boy. *important role*

Got any details for bridal shop or willing to borrow your house for us to shoot contact me too.

All this will be credit in the end!

2009-07-28T16:53:00.001+08:00

SICK!!! RUNNING NOSE!!!

ARH! IDIOT! Can't i have some peace?! SHIT!

I'm going to kill people.
Zzz~

2009-07-27T18:00:00.003+08:00

It Is Soooooo........... Not My Day.

SO unlucky that i injure my right hand. Can't write or wave my hand or even lift up long for the time being..... Sad.
Don't know how i got my injury, but i remember i know i injure before saturday. That's mean friday night. haiz.
SO UNLUCKY!

Today wake up in a great mood but went i'm on the way to school, saw something that spoil my mood for the whole day. So didn't wanted to talk much about it. Just feel that whenever i'm in good mood, something will surely spoil my mood fo the whole day. haiz...........

Tomorrow stil have PE lesson but i can't join them. Only can sit at the side watch. Because of my STUPID RIGHT HAND. Arh!
Not in the good mood.
Don't feel like talking................
Bye~

2009-07-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

i LoVE yOu! HaHas. ^^

New Toys! Thank You! I really like it.
So cute! hehex.

Really don't know how to continue. So happy. ^^

TOday at school nothing do project and play CS. Kill here and there. COOL! Shiok siax! :)
byebye
lalala~

2009-07-22T22:30:00.004+08:00

i HATE you.

BIG MOUTH. everything happen because of your big mouth. idiot.
can't you control or think before saying anything out? i cry because you anyhow say things which is not the truth! you should find out the truth before saying anything nasty. STUIPD FAT PIG!!!!

ARH!!! Feel like beating people.

Speaking of beating people, today i beat fathah 13 times because he bully me but in the end got return as a gift of 13 times punches at my hand. sad.... Pain sia. think tml confirm blueblack. it's okay. after all we are just playing but fathah's strenght.................. erm.........

Wanted to finish this project soon and wish to go korea SOON!!! hahas.
hoping that SUPER JUNIOR come to singapore to have their concert. :)

2009-07-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

Realise that i'm going 18.....

but i'm still very childish. although i always say other people childish, in the end i'm the most childish de. LOL. I miss all my friends. I really need hearing ear & shoulder to rest. I want SUPER JUNIOR to come singapore and have their concert.

byebye. :)

2009-07-19T21:43:00.005+08:00

HerE TO UpDAte lE.....

Post for yesterday night.
yesterday too bored at home. So i when i was cleaning the mess in my room, i saw my toy so i take out and play. hehex.

(1st - shoelays drop. 2nd - comb for him 3rd - handsome le but something missing)

( 4th - is the sun glasses! 5th - take picture 6th - going home le [sob!] 7th - HOME SWEET HOME)
That's all for the story of the handsome bear name [Xiao Junior] hehex. :P

Today went out for the whole day and meet 3 different group of people. hahas.

1st - meet my childhood friend they all till 4 plus.
2nd - meet classmate to buy something and me interview for jobs.
3rd - at night meet parents for dinner.

That's all for today! Bye!
lalala~
LovE my DarlinG, RePaiR hAo le............ :)

2009-07-16T22:41:00.002+08:00

I'm having a good life right now.............

Stop irritating me. i just want to be happy. i can't be happy if you appear in the picture.
Having a hard time doing my final year project. how to say lay?

- don't know where to find a bridal shop want to sponsor us the shop for 1 day and wedding dress
- don't know where to find people that can act very well which don't need to pay money but lunch and dinner we paying for it
- don't know where to find a big bungalow house for the drama
- don't know how to communicate with some of my team members

HAIZ~
How? Still thinking of the ways to solve the problem.

Who interested in acting? Lady & Guy. Please contact me if interested. Can be part of your portfolio. :)

2009-07-10T23:56:00.004+08:00

UNLUCKY DAY!

POST FOR 5 JULY 2009!

That day SUCKS! having bad luck all day long. even till i reach my house downstairs. i fall down. got blueblack and both leg and and. ONLY one thing i'm happy of. being the night time when i was lying on my bed. FIRST TIME playing with lightstick. it's like the only thing i'm happy about and nothing happen at that time. Weee............. did take pictures too.

but after that day i still go back to my unlucky day. which is monday, 6 JULY 2009. haiz...
donno whether what to do.

post about this few days.....
i went to cut hair few weeks ago and the aunty told me that one of my friend when there to cut hair too, but i didn' care. lol. have a new hairstyle that means wash ago all my BAD LUCK, have a NEW LIFE! HAHA!!!

tomorrow going out with classmate. finally, i'm GOING OUT! so bored of staying at home all times. miss my secondary school friends. haiz. i wanna to meet up with them. miss them so much.............

going to sleep le, GOOD NIGHT!
hope that my darling don't die on me. please get better. :)
REPAIRING~

2009-07-02T23:09:00.003+08:00

EveRYthing haPPen ToO SuDDen.

didn't really know what to say about today. can only say that morning still in happy mood until late afternoon. don't know how to explain. just that everything happen too sudden. don't wish to say. so please don't ask me. i really don't know how to answer...............................................................

2009-07-02T00:29:00.002+08:00

UPdatee!!!

this few days can't on computer. so now using sister's laptop to update. hahas.
this whole week working at J8 along expect for today. off day. still went to J8 find cindy to eat dinner together. can't stay at home for the whole day, will think alot. LOL.

actually this week i didn't work de, cause i request to work for the whole week. starting school next week so didn't really have time to work so must work alot for school reopen. still owe my secondary school friend lisa's birthday present. erm......... donno what to get for her. :P

next week starting schhol le. SIAN! stress coming again. sad siax. got project to do again. and my final project STRESS!! haven't think of the story ending. ARH! HELP!!!!

please help me pray hard that when school reopen, nothing will happen.

2009-06-27T23:44:00.002+08:00

GueSS WhaT? i'M GOing MAd!

hahas. finally can update my blog. okay. let's say about last thursday. went out wif friends. quite fun. got alot of things happen. lazy to say. cause it's whole day outing. too long. lol.

talk about this few days. too many things happen. so i really don't know what to do.
don't want to talk about it.................................

2009-06-23T21:56:00.003+08:00

hiHI~~

today went out with my best friend JIAMIN!! hahas. cause she's my childhood friend so i'm quite happy. actually not quite, is very HAPPY! if i wan go out with her must "appointment". hehex! just kidding. she's always busy with her homework and project so hardly can hang out with her. shop around northpoint and bought heard ear. took alot of pictures too but in the and only left few pictures cause JM don't like most of the pictures.

[hahas. see any different? :P]

after that, went home to watch TV, relax at home ALONE! lol! :P
it's like my world. hahas. now watching SUPER JUNIOR show (FULL HOUSE).
very funny. tomorrow's my friend birthday. so i wish her HAPPY ADVANCE BIRTHDAY CINDY!
STAY CHEERFUL! ^^
this coming thursday going out wif them to celebrate her belated birthday. will update again.

lalala~
bye :)

2009-06-20T19:42:00.003+08:00

i'M juS A BIg FaT LIer...........

2009-06-12T19:32:00.004+08:00

10 more days.........

ello..... so bored at sch doing stuff for teacher. most of all, I'M SICK AGAIN!!! flu again. lol. everytime go flu. arh! jus now saw alot of suju pictures. but didn't found the videos i wanted..... nothing to post le.... bye.. :)

*10 more days to go. although i know it's impossible, but i hope there's still chances.......

2009-06-10T14:10:00.002+08:00

HIhi~

here to update again. hahas. so bored. ytd working. then i almost fall asleep. but luckily i didn't. or else got scolded also don knw why. hahas.

ytd working thinking of alot of things. like will i go korea? is it the trip confirm? really hope that the trip to korea is true. my sister tell me maybe our trip to taiwan will be change to sep too. if going, then i will be going both taiwan and korea. so happy.

hope that it's all true.

thinking of buying new phone. cos my phone going to "die".. my phone can't make it anymore. but no money. hav to wait till my plan finish then can renew. hm....... wat phone should i change??

later at night meeting my parents. going JM house. finally i will see her again. hope that she's at home. got alot of things wan to share wif her.

LOVE DBSK & SUPER JUNIOR!!!

CouNtiNg DoWN............ 12 days.......

* _ ____ _.

2009-06-08T13:42:00.004+08:00

SudDeNlY kNoW wAT i Wan....

After cleaning up everything at Ps roadshow, we went back. at that moment. my left eye starting to have abit of pain. on the way to station, i keep on rubbing my eyes. at train my right eye starting to pain too. then i hav no choice but to rub both eye. when i open my eyes everytime, my version very blur. everything is bur to me. so i have to rub my eye so i hav clear version. so i keep on rubbing my eyes till yishun.

when i reach yishun, at first my eyes gets better but as i were walking home, my eyes starting to get more blur and even more pain. this time is both my eye pain so i keep on rubbing my eye without looking when i was crossing the road. i didn't notice that one of the car coming towards me cos i was listening to music until the driver suddenly break. the driver at first didn't saw me. but when he saw me i already infront of his car. the driver break then i got shock then i suddenly realise that i haven try to solve the problem i hav but only running away from it. the driver very angry stare at me and say 'careful when crossing road if wasn't i see u jus now, u should hav die!' (in chinese) then i faster walk away. frm that moment, alot of things come to my mind. i was jus nearly got bang by the car but luckily the driver sees me.

so near to the car. should i say i'm lucky or i'm getting hints from .........

i don know. maybe it's trying to tell me i still time to settle all my problems. hahas. quite funny. hope that on the 22nd of june before 12am, i get the things i wan. if not....................

don know wat will happen. hahas.

maybe thinking of going.................................................

2009-06-01T17:56:00.001+08:00

TRip to VieTnaM deLay.

haiz. sad. cos of the H1N1. ARH! but i heard that maybe if the trip still hav then MAYBE we will be going to korea!! YEAH! hope that it's true. if it's true, my dream come true. i even hope to stay there forever. so i can start everything new over there. ^^

* i WaN to GEt OuT oF ALL thE ProBLems...............................*

2009-06-01T16:59:00.005+08:00

LaST SUNday..........

went out wif all my childhood friends. we went to beach, marine b.... {don know how to spell} and hav alot of fun. WIND TOO STRONG!! ARH! :@ but i don really enjoy much.. cos inside my mind there's other problem. can't really enjoy. i take alot of pictures too. some of them taken by my frens.

Jiamin & Me [WIND TOO STRONG]

Edward & Jiamin & Xiao hui, [my leg]

NEXt DesTINatiOn......
also wind too strong.. my hair too messy. still emo and got caught by fren using phone to take down pic. lol. =.=''

[Me got caught emoing. lol] JM trying too emo. :P

[Act cute but...... not cute at all]

Isn't it beautiful?

tHAt'S all foR THe PiCTUres....
i find that i really can't get that problem out of my mind.. hope that it will solve soon.....

ToDAy....
got exam for audio class. donno whether i will pass anot. hopefully i will. after exam, my classmate went to play freezer th playgorund. =.=''
don feel like joining so i watched them play. did take pictures. will upload soon....... :)

*WHen WiLL EvEYTHing SolVE??? HopE THAt u WErE wiF mE..... HopEFUlly RaiNDOw CoMe FASter................* i m*** u

2009-05-25T18:30:00.002+08:00

REALLY LOST IN THE MIDDLE OF NO WHERE...............................

WHEN WILL I STOP SUFFERING?

I'M TIRED!!!!!!!!!!

I REALLY CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE....................................

I WILL GO CRAZY SOON...........

SOMEONE PLEASE BRING ME OUT OF HERE.................

2009-05-25T18:19:00.002+08:00

HI~

today went to appointment at TTS hospital. then the doctor jus tell me that i hav to eat medi or else my life will hav danger...... WTH?! got nothing to say. jus LL.. don really care too.. cos i'm seriously darn tired. irritating.

ALWAYS WHEN I NEED SOMONE THERE FOR ME THEN SOMETHING WILL HAPPEN. WTH! HOW AM I GOING TO FACE EVERYTHING MYSELF?! HAIZ..
YESTERDAY I REALLY WISH TO JUMP OF THE BULIDING BUT I'M SUCH A COWARD. REALLY AFRIAD TO DIE.
BUT I KNOW THAT I WILL STLL FACE IT ONE DAY.

i really wish that u would there for me........ but.................. i know it won't happen....

2009-05-21T19:11:00.008+08:00

I like THIs SonG ALot.......... MEAniNG fuLL........ :)
Got WAT i WanTED to SAy......

(English Translation)

It’s you
It’s you
It’s you
It’s only you
It’s you
It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, it’s only you
When you ask again, it’s only you
Even if you already have another love
I can’t forget you, I can’t turn back around
Oh ~
The moment my eyes began to burn
The moment my heart was captured by you
I have no regret, I chose you
That’s right, it’s you

Chorus :
Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh when you tell me you love me
When you tell me thousands and millions of times
Even when my heart sets on fire, my dry lips wear out
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you

It’s you
I don’t need any words. it’s just you
“ It’s too late “ , but for me it’s just you
I know our love is wrong
I can’t give up, I can’t let you go
Ah Ah

My lips, cold as can be, are even more blue
I cry out to find to find your warmth
I call, even though I call for you
And there’s no reply, I’ll wait for you

Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you Oh oh only for you
Oh oh only for you
For me, it’s you, it’s you
Why don’t you know, why don’t you know?
For me, it’s you, it’s you

Oh whatever anyone anyone says, it doesn’t matter to me
Oh whoever whoever curses me, I’ll only look at you
Even when I’m born again, it’s still only you
(Still Still) Even as time goes by

It’s you

Credit : kimchi hana@soompi.com

REallY like IT ALot......... :)

2009-05-20T08:10:00.002+08:00

iT'S BeeN CONfirm!!!!!!!

Yeah! finally confirm that i can go overseas wif frens. hahas. hope that i really enjoy. this few days been slacking around. don even know wat to do. LOST in the middle of no where...

2009-05-16T14:14:00.002+08:00

THINKing of goING oVERSeas...... LOL!

um............. long time nvr post le. recently got a new event at my school. going vietnam. go there for exchange. i got sign up also. thinking of going there relax and "san san xin". hahas. time to let go everything over here. hope that i can go. cos now waiting for the teacher in charge to confirm with us. if can go, then our class got 8 ppl going including me. this few days been making myself busy then always go home very late. always must wait till 3am to 4am then can slp. or even never slp. cos i must always keep my mind fill up wif project then i will feel better. long time never watch tv le. lazy to watch too. now adays when i'm at home i will always slp. tml going to out to tution then after that may out to do project. AGAIN project. lol.

never ending. jus hope that i can go vietnam and forget everything over here.

2009-05-11T00:02:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry.

2009-05-08T22:56:00.001+08:00

LEE HUI RU! U R THE MOST STUPID GAL IN THE WHOLE WORLD!
WHY BELIEVE THE "PROMISES"?! LOL!

2009-05-07T23:54:00.002+08:00

WAT THE HELL?!

i had enough. don really understand u. wat do u wan? STOP torturing me! CAN ANOT?! I REALLY HATE IT. really enough. jus when i need u then this is happening. i always been keeping it deep inside my heart but now i can't really take it anymore. i really don knw how to handle when ppl ask me. how am i suppose to say. cos of ur reasons? or wat?.. TELL ME LA.

WAT DO U REALLY WAN?
i'm like............. forget it. no point talking about it since u still ignoring my question when i say this. fine. i really don brother anymore. wat u wan to think or wat is up to u. i'm trying my best to stay far away from u.

2009-05-07T15:22:00.002+08:00

rEAlly thANk u gOd.. so haPPy ^^

MY CLASS GOT WARS!! ARH!! EVERYONE RUN FOR UR LIFE >.<"

LOL! JOKING ONLY>>

my frens are all crazy about one teacher. lol.

HUNGRY, SLEEPY>>

Zzzzzzzzzzzz...............

2009-05-07T15:03:00.002+08:00

YEAH!! I'M FREE!!!

hahas.. finally finish my a3 & a4 shooting yesterday. so happy. ^^
muhahas... but now i need to settle all the paperwork and deadline's tml 5pm. =.=" stress.. um... too many things cock up. hahas.. still got mrs woon project video shooting and the deadline is this coming monday. i haven even start yet. lol.

feel like going out siax. long time nvr go out le. so bored. hahas.. i going to no money le la!!! ARH! need to work but don even hav time. sad case. still troubled about it. how? how? how?!!! don really hav anything to write. cos there's nothing for me to write but projects. oh ya.. jus remember that my class test's coming. it's at 18/6. then after class test got mini project. don even know who i will group with. cos this time round is decide by my teacher. um.. wondering..... hahas.. i'm BROKE!!!!! HOW?!

2009-05-06T09:29:00.003+08:00

finally finish one important thing.

after spending my precious slping time doing project, i finally did something that is the most stress for now. hahas. feel more comfortable. lol! but now i still doing other things for the project. didn't attend morning class. [PS to my teacher: i'm sorry. cos i hav no choice but to finish everything by afternoon so i stay home to complete the project.] now, great that i later have to go sch for shooting from 1pm to 9plus. sad. ARH! another stress thing. lol.

got alot of problem for everything. no choice. this is wat i choose. hahas. jus now early in the morning 6plus (when my mother got up) got scolded by almost everyone in my family that i didn't sleep and was out the whole night jus for the project. my mother the most angry and disappointed. haiz. donno wat to do. jus keep quiet. in my mind i was thinking that why everything happen when i'm already very stress other thing that come from outside then is like adding up. ARH!

how i wish that someone were there wif me. but..................... hahas. never mind. i can't change the facts. actually i already change alot ever since that day. is like my attitude towards everyone SUCK! i always don like to talk then ppl keep on asking. i like irritated by the *PERSON* that keep on disturbing me. i feel like asking him jus stup up. he keep on asking and asking the same question that i don feel like answering. ARH!

okay! CHANGE TOPIC! hahas. i today like type out alot of things siax. still alot wanted to say it out. but.................. think i keep inside my heart can le. don feel like saying out. i'm tired of talking. talk too much also sian. hahas. rather write on a piece of paper or type out at blog. don feel like talking. lol.
okay la. i going back to do my project le.

hope that everything went smoothly today. SERIOUSLY!
haiz...............................................

2009-05-05T20:01:00.002+08:00

I'M GOING CRAZY!!!

STOP FORCING ME!!!ARH!!!
i really going crazy. tml going to have shooting for my project and yet i still can't find talent. then everyone asking me how? HOW AM I GOING TO KNOW? DON ASK ME! HELP LA!!!

all i wanted to shout out. but i didn't. jus keep quiet. =.=" SIAN! ARH!!
nobody wanted to help me even all my frens can't find. WAT THE HELL!!!! once agin i'm going to say this one last time STOP ASKING HOW AND JUS HELP OUT?!!!
ARH!!!! ARH!!!! ARH!!!!
don knw tml i go crazy anot. god pls help me.
first time praying god. i really going to crazy. ARH!!!!!!!!

2009-05-03T17:42:00.001+08:00

today is my second sister birthday.

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY!!! WOW! ANd she's OUT for DATe wif HEr Bf. SO SWEET>> ^^
HOpe that she will always stay pretty. and cheerful. um.... thinking of wat to get for her birthday.

2009-05-03T17:26:00.003+08:00

ARH!!! I'M GOING CRAZY! WHO'S THERE TO HELP ME?!!!

Having a hard time finding talent for my project. DOn't kNOw what to do. ALReady got aloT OF proBLEM le now somemore can't find anyone to help me for my gameshow. WTH?!
REalise that i can't reaLLy do anything weLL. AND my temper is worse. ALways get angry or emotional for any small problem. CAn't really cope wif all the THings in My MINd. REALLY HOPE THAT I CAN STOP TIME FROM GOING. REALLY hope that everything remain still. i need to rest.

i'm tired. can't control my mind and emotion. WTH?!! ARH!!!!!!!
SOMEBODY PLS HELP ME OUT OF THIS MESS!!!!!

2009-04-28T17:30:00.004+08:00

I LIke THis SOng....

词：王雅君
曲：林俊杰

M: 我还在寻找
一个依靠
和一个拥抱

M: 谁替我祈祷
替我烦恼
为我生气为我闹

F: 幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊
有变化了

B: 小酒窝长睫毛
是你最美的记号

F: 我每天睡不着
想念你的微笑

B: 你不知道

F:你对我
B:多么重要

F:有了你
生命完整的刚好

B:小酒窝长睫

毛
迷人得无可救药

M:我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了

B:终于找到
心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

F: 幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊
有变化了

B: 小酒窝
长睫毛
是你最美的记

号

F: 我每天睡不着
M: ao~~

F: 想念你的微笑
B: 你不知道

F:你对
B:我多么重要

F: 有了你
生整完成的刚好

B: 小酒窝
长睫毛
迷人得无可救药

M:我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了

B:终于找到
心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

B: 小酒窝
长睫毛
迷人得无可救药

M: 我放慢了步调
感觉像是喝醉了

B: 终于找到
心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

2009-04-28T16:47:00.006+08:00

AFTer SO many THings HAS happEN, I deCIDed nOT to RUn AWay...

so many things has happen this few days. thinking of it, feel that i'm so stupid. i will accept the facts. and go on wif ur decision. as ur fren, plaese take care. feel free to talk to me if u hav trouble. if u wan other ppl know, go ahead. i won't stop u. i will stay by ur side as a fren. :)

this few days has been running away from something but it's time to stop running away from it. been busying frm project so won't be updating often. found a song quite nice. hope ur enjoy. :)

2009-04-23T13:53:00.003+08:00

MY SMilE anD LaUGHter ARE gONe...

IF u LIe to ME, I WiLL onLY SAy mySELF STupID. anD wIll LAUgh OUt LOUd.

u TAke AlWays MY HaPPINess. REtuRN iT BaCK to ME. i TRusT u this ONce, BUT don TAKe It GRanTED.

FOund This SoNG NICe. :)

HaO XIn HaO BAo (Being good gives good return)

It's CanTONese SOng.

好心好報 - 方力申∕鄧麗欣
Being good gives good return – Alex Fong/Stephy Tang

Ａ：落力為你好　得不到分數
Doing my best for you at whatever cost
你決定要跟　他日後同步
You have decided to be with him [follow him from now on]
他不懂愛惜你　我樂意操勞
He doesn’t know how to love you, but I’m willing to put in the effort to do so.

Ｓ：我決意愛他　祝我愉快吧
I’ve decided to love him. Please wish me happiness.
你最明白我　痛極亦留下
You are the one who understands that no matter how painful it is, I will not leave.
傷得很重也不怕　我願意等他
I’m not scared of being hurt deeply; I’m willing to wait for him.

Ａ：還看著你（Ｓ：他會感動嗎）
Still I watch you (he will be touched),
看你在懸崖走路（Ｓ：他亦跑掉嗎）
I watch you going on the road to the cliffs (he will run with me)
他卻放下你　只照顧自己
He will not release you and only take care of himself.

Ｓ：我慣了愛他　你怎樣做
在懸崖還是　我無退路
I am use to loving him. Why do you persist in this when I am not going to retreat.

＊Ａ：對你好　無人稀罕我好
Be good to you. No one cherishes my goodness.
無人欣賞我好　原來你習慣他一套
No one appreciates my goodness. It’s because you are use to him [his cover].
從來沒有　愛我　看得清楚我知道
I can see that you have never loved me
不必得到　不妨陪襯　但願為你好
I know that I cannot be with you or interfere, but maybe that is good for you.

Ｓ：他　從來都比你差　仍然死心愛他
He is very different to you, but still I really love him.
垂頭再度聽他欺詐　期求他說　愛我＊
He lets me down and I hear he is a bad person [cheat]. I hope he says that he loves me.
為何尚未等到　可能　這秒時辰未到
I am still waiting for this. Maybe it isn’t time yet.
Ａ：是受罪也好　聽聽你哭訴
If suffering is good, I hear you unhappily complain.
你說難過總　比分手更好
You say that you have such a hard time that you prefer to break up.
Ｓ：我說幾多的女主角　也受過煎熬
I say, how many female leads have also suffered this torture?
Ａ：情況壞到（Ｓ：他也許做到）
The bad circumstance is here (Perhaps he can do it)
你信任來年一日　他答應做到（Ｓ：他也許做到）
The day that you believe that he promises that he can do it (Perhaps he can do it)
通通都做到
He keeps saying that he can do it

合：我也似你的無從勸告
寧願犧牲都不願卻步
I am like you- never take advice. I would rather sacrifice myself than to turn back.

Ｒｅｐｅａｔ＊
Ｓ：知你愛我
我竟扮未知道　好人　恕我未能做到
I know you love but I pretend that I do not know. Forgive me, I am unable to be a good person yet.

Ａ：你當我是知己　我看得到
I can see that you treat me like I am yours.
我當你是一生前途
I treat you as the only reason of my life.
Ｓ：幾次也是沉迷麻目　控制不到
When can you stop being bewitched
合：怎麼好都等不到
What is it so good that you cannot wait?
Ａ：怎去做　無人珍惜我好
Why do I do it. No one treasures my goodness.
無人喜歡我好　原來要學會他一套
No one likes that I am good. So I have to learn how to be like him [his cover.]
從來沒有　吻過　記得清楚　我知道
I clearly remember we have not kissed
不必得到　不妨陪襯　但願為你好
I know that I cannot be with you or interfere, but maybe that is good for you.
Ｓ：好　從來都知你好（Ａ：未夠好）
I’ve always known you’re good (not good enough)
為何他不夠好（Ａ：我不夠好）
He is also good
回來我又與他擁抱
Returning to him, I want his embrace.
合：仍然相信我會　有好心得好報
Still, I believe that if I be good, I will get a good return
可能　到某日會知道
May be, that day I will understand.

2009-04-19T21:25:00.003+08:00

yoyoyo!!!!

hahas.. back again.. but this time is crazy. and sad. and happy! hahas. donno how to say. LOL! um... say the good thing first before sharing the bad thing...........

GOod THing is................
toDAy i GEt Money!!! muhahahas. Becos of my 'n' level result then i can take two years de money!!! YEAH!!!! happy.. ^^ got take pics too. but he didn't accompany me. sad. how i wish he was here.

SAd THing is..................
~ my HAIR is getting less..... going to no hair le la. keep on droping. ARH!
~ been alone quite awhile. he always not around beside me no matter wat.

[my happiness or when i'm sad. donno wat to say. jus that he always tell me alot of reason. i knw that i hav to face it. but i'm really very tired of him always not around by myside. i scare one day i will forget him or wat. OR EVen tired of this relationship. (i'm sorry to say this. cos i hav no right to anyhow give comment. i'm sorry. but.............. haiz.. nvr mind.) change topic.]

[back to my hair. donno whether i should change hairstyle or wat. um..... i'm going crazy becos of myhair?! ER.. abit LIke cRaZY WoMEN. hahas. lalala~]

tml going back the hell. haiz. got norning lesson till 3.30pm! then after thAT hav to stay baCK. ARH! It's ALriGHt.. :) i CAN BeAR wif it. COs i'm CRAZY WOMEN! MUHAHAHAHA! hahahas.. hahahas..

hahahas.. hahahas.. hahahas..
hahahas.. hahahas.. hahahas..
hahahas.. hahahas.. hahahas..
hahahas.. hahahas.. hahahas..
hahahas.. Um..... lalala~
Will update again...............................

2009-04-18T12:53:00.002+08:00

heyy EvEryOne..............

i'm here to update again.. hahas..
today got nth to say because i'm staying at home for the whole day jus to do project. lol.
um... let's talk about ytd.

ytd after sch, then went to meet wy. finally. after so long then can see him. hahas. but jiajin come along wif me to eat lunch together. very funny loh. we always joke around.
then he give present that he brought at HK and KL. so happy. ^^
will update the pic next time.
PS: thanks for the present that u give to me. thank you. i like it alot! :)

for my sch, there's nth much to say also. cos too STRESS.. hahas. jus kidding. only project alot la. lol. (chey. muahaha.)
that's all for today post. hahas.
(PS: nth much to write.)

BYe BYe... =)

2009-04-12T22:39:00.006+08:00

hELLo......

i'm back again.. ytd night went to best fren house to help the sis celebrate 21st birthday. must be curious why i help her sis celebrate birthday. cause her sis also know me from childhood! lol! HAHA! *abit not funny but entertain me*
got take alot of pictures. lol..
ytd also take out my extention. cos i DROP alot of hair.. *SOD SOD!* so sad. so i decided to take out. my fren help me to take out but i very sad cos i DROP alot of hair. haiz.

(busying SMS)

(Eeee..... ACT CUTE)

hahas.. talk about today. today went to frens house to do nail art. hahas. we talk alot. then got take picture out too.. ^^ i like it. PS: thank you! my darling! REMEMBER to tag me when u see my post. hahas.

(is it nice?)

today he's coming back. finally in singapore after so long. haiz. nothing to say. but he really got enjoy himself then good loh. he happy = i'm happy too. ^^
don knw wat he thinking or doing now. i only know he on the way back to singapore. don knw when he's back, he will hav time for me anot. haiz. but i can see him then it's alright le. :)
YEAH! he reach singapore le. JUS RECEIVED SMS FRM HIM! *10:33PM

miss him. 3>
smile everyday........

2009-04-10T21:29:00.004+08:00

heLLo.....

toDAy jus DIScharged FRm hospital. finally... go in for 3 days then finally can come out le. doc said my brain got that time got lost of memories and still haven confirm wat is it inside my brain. lol. don knw how to said. hahas. but i jus can't angry and can't hav stress for now. hav to control my temper. but everyone knws my temper SUCKS! lol. but no choice, hav to control no matter wat. hahas.

inside hospital for this few days, i think of alot of things. like i hurt my bf, my family and even my best frens. jus because of my attitude sucks. alot of ppl told me that i hav change alot. i also can sense it but i jus keep quiet. lol.

about ytd, i hav to say sorry to my bf. cos i said something very bad that hurt him alot. i didn't mean it. i'm sorry. please don be upset. okay? hope u enjoy urself at overseas.
i can only say.. my bf is really a good guy. so caring. i'm so happy. ^^

TWO more days to sch reopen!!!! oh NO!!!!!!
i haven even got relax! haven do my project planning!!! 2 more days then i will be dead! ARH!! so stress about my sch project.. then lifeskills project still got 10 days then deadline! ARH! so i still got 2 more days to relax myself before i get crazy.. hahas..

lalalalala~~~~~

2009-04-02T15:12:00.003+08:00

UPDATE!!!!

after so many weeks, i finally can update my blog.. hehex.. today thanks to my bf, cos without him borrowing his laptop to me, i can't even update.
P.S: thank you dar dar.. ^^

now.... talk about today.. my life sucks today!! because i thought i can go out wif my group. in the end. no one come. hahas.. but some of them did tell me they are ready to come out frm home. At least i'm not angry wif some of them.

my life sucks today because of my phone spoil few days ago and was send to repair.. haiz.. at least i can take it back today. cos of my sister help me collect. ^^
P.S: thank you sis. love ya.

this few weeks, been busy for sch project and work at downtown for of 4 days.. hahas.. :P
miss all my frens and hope to go out wif them if i can.. hahas..

thAT'S all FOR todaY..
BYe!!!
mUHAHAhaha...
crazy liao...
hehex...

*miss my dar dar..

ahgirl (dandan)

Waiting for TIME to PASS!!

'LAUGHING out LOUD!'

词：王雅君 曲：林俊杰 M: 我还在寻找 一个依靠 和一个拥抱

M: 谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼 为我生气为我闹 F: 幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠 然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了 B: 小酒窝长睫毛 是你最美的记号

F: 我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑 B: 你不知道 F:你对我 B:多么重要 F:有了你 生命完整的刚好 B:小酒窝长睫

毛 迷人得无可救药 M:我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了 B:终于找到 心有灵犀的美好 一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老

F: 幸福开始有预兆 缘分让我们慢慢紧靠 然后孤单被吞没了 无聊变得有话聊 有变化了 B: 小酒窝 长睫毛 是你最美的记

号 F: 我每天睡不着 M: ao~~ F: 想念你的微笑 B: 你不知道 F:你对 B:我多么重要 F: 有了你 生整完成的刚好

B: 小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人得无可救药

M:我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了 B:终于找到 心有灵犀的美好 一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老 B: 小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人得无可救药 M: 我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了 B: 终于找到 心有灵犀的美好 一辈子暖暖的好 我永远爱你到老